OK. why is it when it comes to worldly things or "laro" stuffs we can get easily addicted or even would bust our arses off in accomplishing them out? BUT when it comes to pressing matters like in my case Thesis- i just hate it.
2. Seriously i need divine help. I've been stuck in gear 2 eversince end of June and this ain't good for me.
3. Am doing something about blogosphere because i figured that it'd be easier for me as well i am a blogger myself (OK tau tak hebat pun) but you know, i think i got the basic understanding of what a blog is about ...
4. then infused it with political things (as that is the subject matter that i'm required to do for my scholarship fulfillment)
5. then.........as if that is not enough, i gotta think something to connect the subject of interest (or more like subject of compulsory) to the courses that i've been undergoing..
6. the concoction: i came up with socio-political blogs & national security/political stability.
7. OK. so it is NOT something extraordinary. Probably even too mundane to discuss or finding out to some.
8. MY justification is: go low as this is only partial requirement of my MA in Strategic & Defence Studies..you know in other words; as i've been ranting and raving previously , i am RUNNING out of time as such I AM NOT gonna delve into HUGE IDEAS to save-the-world-mission based issues. that would be disastrous for me.
9. BUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT just as i thought i've got everything covered, in fact was so euphoric that after my proposal's submission, i've got great reviews and a good-to-go signal from the SV without much adjustments- but yes, how me joy is shortlived.
10. thought i was going to make things easier for me, but SV asked to review 15 blogs in a span of 2 years! (i've iniatially proposed for 10 blogs in a year period)
11. NOW PROBLEM is what constitutes a blog to be anti-government, pro-government or the most difficult of all and causing me the halt = how to define a NEUTRAL stance bloggers to the establishment??????????
12. until i get this figured out, i am stuck in gear 2 forever.
13. hellllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllp
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
Namakemono Desu
Salam.
"namakemono" tiada kaitan dengan perihal nama. Adapun "namakemono" bahasa jepun yang bermaksud "suka tangguh kerja" atau dalam bahasa inggeris "procrastinator".
2. Aku mendapat jolokan itu daripada pensyarah jepun aku ketika di Universiti Bunkyo Gakuin, Tokyo suatu ketika dahulu.
3. Tiada gambaran yang lebih tepat untuk menterjemahkan keadaan aku sekarang yang semakin lama semakin "lemas" dalam keserabutan untuk menyiapkan penulisan tesis aku yang sudah tersangkut, terperuk untuk beberapa minggu setelah meraikan 'kegembiraan' menyiapkan satu bahagian dalam masa kurang sebulan.
4. Masa, masa itu "musuh' aku sekarang. Anak, perihal keibuan dan segala macam yang bersangkut paut tentang keluarga itu cabaran terhebat aku dalam menyiapkan kerja yang satu ini.
5. DAN, wang, wang biasiswa aku yang akan 'tamat tempoh' hujung tahun ini - penentu 'kestabilan' yang aku ada sekarang dan status quo itu bisa berubah sekiranya aku tidak berjaya menyelesaikan segala urusan dalam tempoh yang ditetapkan.
6. AKU bukan wanita super, mahu bukan 'SuperMak' seperti watak Nasha Aziz dalam satu sinetron baru di tv.
7. AKU ingin jadi wanita super ketika ini.
8. TAPI setiap kali aku cuba bangkit dan berada dalam 'zon' penulisan aku, aku akan selalu 'diganggu' dengan perihal membabitkan tanggungjawab aku sebagai ibu.
9. YA, anak aku masih kecil, bukan boleh aku kata 'tidak' kepadanya. Bukan boleh aku tinggalkannya, biarkannya, tidak endahkan kemahuannya.
10. AKU tak berdaya. AKU cuba. AKU sudah cuba...
11. JADI, untuk tidak 'merosakkan' pemikiran aku tentang keserabutan aku ini, aku hanya akan berserah kepada yang MAHA ESA, aku sudah cuba, aku buat apa yang termampu dan aku akan terus usaha sehingga usai semuanya.
12. Oleh itu, sebagai 'jaring keselamatan' untuk perihak kewangan, fokus aku kini untuk mencari pekerjaan bagi 'menampung' kehidupan aku pasca-biasiswa sementara aku akan cuba habiskan sisa-sisa penulisan dalam satu tempoh yang aku lihat setidak-tidaknya sehingga Mac 2012.
"namakemono" tiada kaitan dengan perihal nama. Adapun "namakemono" bahasa jepun yang bermaksud "suka tangguh kerja" atau dalam bahasa inggeris "procrastinator".
2. Aku mendapat jolokan itu daripada pensyarah jepun aku ketika di Universiti Bunkyo Gakuin, Tokyo suatu ketika dahulu.
3. Tiada gambaran yang lebih tepat untuk menterjemahkan keadaan aku sekarang yang semakin lama semakin "lemas" dalam keserabutan untuk menyiapkan penulisan tesis aku yang sudah tersangkut, terperuk untuk beberapa minggu setelah meraikan 'kegembiraan' menyiapkan satu bahagian dalam masa kurang sebulan.
4. Masa, masa itu "musuh' aku sekarang. Anak, perihal keibuan dan segala macam yang bersangkut paut tentang keluarga itu cabaran terhebat aku dalam menyiapkan kerja yang satu ini.
5. DAN, wang, wang biasiswa aku yang akan 'tamat tempoh' hujung tahun ini - penentu 'kestabilan' yang aku ada sekarang dan status quo itu bisa berubah sekiranya aku tidak berjaya menyelesaikan segala urusan dalam tempoh yang ditetapkan.
6. AKU bukan wanita super, mahu bukan 'SuperMak' seperti watak Nasha Aziz dalam satu sinetron baru di tv.
7. AKU ingin jadi wanita super ketika ini.
8. TAPI setiap kali aku cuba bangkit dan berada dalam 'zon' penulisan aku, aku akan selalu 'diganggu' dengan perihal membabitkan tanggungjawab aku sebagai ibu.
9. YA, anak aku masih kecil, bukan boleh aku kata 'tidak' kepadanya. Bukan boleh aku tinggalkannya, biarkannya, tidak endahkan kemahuannya.
10. AKU tak berdaya. AKU cuba. AKU sudah cuba...
11. JADI, untuk tidak 'merosakkan' pemikiran aku tentang keserabutan aku ini, aku hanya akan berserah kepada yang MAHA ESA, aku sudah cuba, aku buat apa yang termampu dan aku akan terus usaha sehingga usai semuanya.
12. Oleh itu, sebagai 'jaring keselamatan' untuk perihak kewangan, fokus aku kini untuk mencari pekerjaan bagi 'menampung' kehidupan aku pasca-biasiswa sementara aku akan cuba habiskan sisa-sisa penulisan dalam satu tempoh yang aku lihat setidak-tidaknya sehingga Mac 2012.
Saturday, July 2, 2011
Taking the cue from TS Sanusi Junid
salam..let's take the cue from TS Sanusi Junid regarding the good & bad as well as the ugly sides of demostration in this country. I could not agree more with him..unless you people fancy having tear gas sprayed onto your face (i know it, when i covered hindraf rally a few years back..and it ain't fun people..) or you have 'chaos' as your middle name..so fine, go and tear the country down with your very dirty political motivated demos..
here's the url add for TS Sanusi Junid's entry ...http://sanusijunid.blogspot.com/2011/07/bersih-yang-boleh-mengotorkan.html#more (for some reason unknown i cannot insert the link)
here's the url add for TS Sanusi Junid's entry ...http://sanusijunid.blogspot.com/2011/07/bersih-yang-boleh-mengotorkan.html#more (for some reason unknown i cannot insert the link)
Friday, July 1, 2011
Oh cuaca yg panas..bikin kapla pusing
Salam.
OK. Dont mean to whine..it's just that i think wht i am about rant is so typical of me as a human being..always easy to feel dissatisfied abt things.....anything.
So malaysia is a tropical country with it u there's the 24/7 summer..or 24/7 rainy days. Is it just me or the weather do gets warmer these days..extreme heat almost 33 degree celcius..or 37 on somedays..i mean that is super hot..and not in a sexy way hot. lol.
Bila panas kebelakangan ini aku akan sakit kepala yg teruk so much so my migrane becoming so bad and severe these days that i had to be jab with painkiller whenever i got the attacks..and somtimes it wasnt caused by stress..
Kalau kena kat anak aku plak lagi kesian..dahla jenis cpt peluh..so kalau cuaca panas ni lagilah..i mean she even sweat profusely when making her poo poo hehe..terlebih sihat..
And oh, today after jummat prayer, me father handed me over a piece of paper- a flyer about ambiga. He said he got that in the masjid. I went through the stuffs written on it and just to be clear- it has nothing good to say to tht ex-bar council president.
Just like the rest of the masses i am not too sure of what to think..again the content of that flyer are provocatively based on race and religion. And the figure it was referring to..i mean she's not a muslim nor malay..so circulating a flyer after jummat congregation is no doubt with one intention in mind- to warn the muslims and malay..
ok..so yeah some of the issues raised does have concern..if it's true i find it appaling a non-muslim dare question the syariah law..even i as muslim , we dont speak ill of it..because if u do, u are questioning Allah..even more ridiculous, the one who's questioning have no understanding about the deen.
But tht is not their fault (non-muslim) if they feel dubious towards the teachings of islam..because they arent educated in the subject and misinformed with so many religious pundits/ politicians wannabe..in this light i totally agree with the concept of secularism as practiced in turkey..where they separate religion and politics - doesnt matter wht religion..hve to be separated with politics..especially in a multi racial country like ours.
Mmm ok enuff rambling..the heat is getting on my head ..i feel so like taking my shirts off and take a dip in a ice cold water..and oh it's my 1st post via iphone..i knw so outdated
OK. Dont mean to whine..it's just that i think wht i am about rant is so typical of me as a human being..always easy to feel dissatisfied abt things.....anything.
So malaysia is a tropical country with it u there's the 24/7 summer..or 24/7 rainy days. Is it just me or the weather do gets warmer these days..extreme heat almost 33 degree celcius..or 37 on somedays..i mean that is super hot..and not in a sexy way hot. lol.
Bila panas kebelakangan ini aku akan sakit kepala yg teruk so much so my migrane becoming so bad and severe these days that i had to be jab with painkiller whenever i got the attacks..and somtimes it wasnt caused by stress..
Kalau kena kat anak aku plak lagi kesian..dahla jenis cpt peluh..so kalau cuaca panas ni lagilah..i mean she even sweat profusely when making her poo poo hehe..terlebih sihat..
And oh, today after jummat prayer, me father handed me over a piece of paper- a flyer about ambiga. He said he got that in the masjid. I went through the stuffs written on it and just to be clear- it has nothing good to say to tht ex-bar council president.
Just like the rest of the masses i am not too sure of what to think..again the content of that flyer are provocatively based on race and religion. And the figure it was referring to..i mean she's not a muslim nor malay..so circulating a flyer after jummat congregation is no doubt with one intention in mind- to warn the muslims and malay..
ok..so yeah some of the issues raised does have concern..if it's true i find it appaling a non-muslim dare question the syariah law..even i as muslim , we dont speak ill of it..because if u do, u are questioning Allah..even more ridiculous, the one who's questioning have no understanding about the deen.
But tht is not their fault (non-muslim) if they feel dubious towards the teachings of islam..because they arent educated in the subject and misinformed with so many religious pundits/ politicians wannabe..in this light i totally agree with the concept of secularism as practiced in turkey..where they separate religion and politics - doesnt matter wht religion..hve to be separated with politics..especially in a multi racial country like ours.
Mmm ok enuff rambling..the heat is getting on my head ..i feel so like taking my shirts off and take a dip in a ice cold water..and oh it's my 1st post via iphone..i knw so outdated
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