OK. I am happy to consider myself a 'neither here nor there' type when it comes to my English proficiency. Of course, this degradation is only recent. Um, OK who am I kidding. I guess my English's deteriorated since I started my uni years and just gotten even worse when I embarked my journey as an employee.
BUT circa Sri Amanian years - I was pretty skillful. (Patting myself on the back now)
NO make that, awesome. LOL! (so, suka ati lah kalau mak perasan this is my blog afterall).Yes, I was in the English Club (yeah, shocker huh?), even entered an inter-class debate competition (double shocker?) - i mean, i love the language but i love any languages that is anyways. Unfortunately way back then, there was no other languages club in my school except English and Malay. I joined the school's Choral speaking. (OK that don't really count as my line was only to "burp" and said "oh and my tummy to fill" LOL) [such irony about me tummy since i am known back then to always skip classes because of gastric pains]
My major exams' result (of course the English language, 1119 to be exact) was a testament to my proficiency of this language.
Hence, i got myself placed in IIUM for a Bachelor in English Literature right after high school despite me applications to this one uni wanting to do totally different courses.
IIUM. It was historic. Not only because I was the first in my family to ever got enrolled for a uni different than the most popular uni amongst Malays. But the course was equally historic too. It was English Literature. Reckoned to be more grandeur than the overrated English TESL (teaching English for second language) course. My uncle said I could be an English lecturers/teachers/tutors which he foresees (then ) would be in demand or at least would be very useful for me once i graduate (now).
Also, that year (2000) marked another history in my life - I started to learned to wear hijab. OK. Because I had to as it was requirement of the uni (it was an International Islamic Uni M'sia anyways)
BUT, the smiles i put on my parents' face didn't last . I was a quitter. BUT i quit not because of the English course, but more of the requirement of me to pass the Arabic language subject if i ever want to graduate. This was the reason. Although not 200% but it was a major factor of me wanting to change uni because of my fear for failing Arabic courses.
Heck, I ain't ashamed to say that I read "asam" (as in Jawi reading) when i was supposed to be reading "Ismi" (as in Arabic for - name) when i saw the Arabic alphabets of "Alif", "Sin" and "Mim".
YES, i was that retarded. I can't read shit. When all the "baris" (the lines - the indicators of the Arabic alphabets are taken away, I turned pale and couldn't make the words) I was a dumbo.
BUT oh boy, how in love i was for the "ustaz" (Arabic for the male teacher). He was my only motivation to go to class every morning (yes lame and very teenager-ish). Heck, i even enrolled for extra-classes just to drool when he teaches (LOL, sorry hub).
**************shrieks***********
woooo...so off-topics now. LOL. terbabas mak. mahap, gostan jap.
ANYWAYSSSSSSSS, my point being that i find it is true when they say that we tend to be a wee bit more creative when our hearts are troubled/sad/depressed...creative in the sense that we may poured that wrenching emotions into words like a song/poetry even diary entry ok not something 'creatively' suicidal.
I mean look at all the great artists (musically) that ever lived - Kurt Cobain was at the peak of his success when his life was all shitty, so was Amy Winehouse's rise to fame with her emotional driven lyrics after a devastating break-ups.
AND i find myself no different than those artist. (OK mak perasan sat)
TAPI tang ini memang aku perasan sejak kecik, sebab masa kecik-kecik aku selalu bergaduh dengan kakak (teh) aku - kami macam anjing dengan kucing - and the not so syiok part was, everytime we had a brawl with each other, she always got mom's side although i am younger than her (mak bagi aku masa tu suka side dia..LOL) so, pergilah beta tuan puteri membawa diri, menjeruk perasaan yang sodih dalam bilik sensorang - dan aku akan suka karang-karang lagu lah, tulis diari lah etc. (LOL)
but this self-soothing method of mine, of course didn't make it to any pop charts/publishers etc. (walaupun aku ada berhajat adoiyai sekali lagi mak perasan jah, sorry).
SOOOOOOO apa-apapun, korek2 benda lama aku tgk hokehlahhh, not bad what i wrote before in my life eyh - poem syok sendiri
dan yang ni plak version haiku 5 baris tak berapa nak jadi :))
***slapppppppppppppppppp* ** ok nak cabut sambung baca journal...benda ni memang syioks sendiri.
PS: oh nota kaki, hari ini genap 3 hari ayahanda beta dimasukkan ke HKL of what seems to be a minor hand surgery removing an infected insect bites but since he was diabetic, the healing process seems to be longer than expected (1 day). Now he will only be released if the wounds will be completely dried. Semoga Allah sembuhkan ayahanda ku dan ampun dosa-dosanya. sobssss...
i, as well as all my family members are so not used with him getting sick, let alone being hospitalized like this (this would be his second time) because he is that super-healthy dad image, always there caring for my mom the hospital-is-my-second-home image (yes, mom always been the frequent visitor /residents in hospitals) - it is so different at my parents' home without his jovial acts - menyakat anak aku , anak aku pun macam rasa lain Atuk takde - asyik cari-cari mana Atuk kat rumah :((
Ayah, an sayang ayah just so you know in case you don't. (am all teary eyes now...gotta go)
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Monday, November 7, 2011
Biting My Own Words
Ok Dalam bahasa Melayu kiranya, terlajak perahu boleh diundur, terlajak kata?? Agak buruk padahnya.
#Terlajak kata 1 aka regrets #1
Besta MD221 electronic dictionary: see post
OK so i wrote and praising the jolly-goodness of how it is to have a besta electronic dictionary. Now a few days later, I'm retracting whatever i may praised about the product. It ain't living up to my expectations and most importantly needs as a postgrad student. It lacks explanations and vocabulary needing to be a postgrad student's standard. But who was i kidding? From the packaging i knew it was meant for school children (note: a picture of a school kid smiling ear to ear with the gadget, don't need to be a rocket scientist to figure that out, no?)
So, i would like to sell it to those in need. Bought at discounted price of RM199 (NP: RM368), and am selling it now at an open price of RM179? (come on, it still practically a brand new stuff with 1 year warranty, no scratch, batt still at its optimum) :) really would recommend for school kids.
#2 Terlajak kata 2 aka regrets #2
Shoes! Ever since i sprained my ankle whilst eagerly strolling for a Jusco's members sale day as a heavily pregnant woman (was 8 months pregnant) ; gone were the days of me strutting with 2.5-5 inches of stilettos, wedges. Also, that injury caused me an 'upgrade' of shoe brands. No more cheap stuffs (yet adorable) brands that goes on sales like everyday. From that day on, I could only find comfort with brands like Hush Puppies ( in fact i was a puppies' loyalist since)
However, most of the shoes that i bought even puppies one, i could only wear 'em for a few months, some just a few weeks. Most of the time, i can't seem to work my way out with the shoes - often it 'kills' my chubby toes that was in fact getting chubbier than it ever been. As such, the shoes some even 1 week old - often given away (with a heavy heart though lol)
So, i would mostly wear a slippers - flat and extremely comfy although it will make me looks sloppy and very informal for office wears etc. And not to mention, exposed my ugly chubby toes for the world to see. (note: me toes's ugliness largely attributed to those wrong shoes i wore since my ankle mishap in 2008)
AND so the search for the 'best shoes' were on and still is.
UNTIL just few months back - i thought well since 2008 my feet has been put 'off-duty' for stilettos and the likes - so, maybe, maybe it is healed. Hence, for Eid, i bought a 3 inch pumps from Charles & Keith ; a brand quite moderately more expensive than say Vincci etc. Everything starts from RM100. So this pumps i had was priced RM159 - OK for me within my price range of my affordable shoes lists.
BUT that too only had me wearing for less than a week and i surrender , left it in the trunk ever since Eid. WHY? that shoes bit me toes to pieces! LOL.
Determination intact - i still search for that one true shoes that would fit me (ala cinderalla fairy tales pula kan? lol)
YES, and just like in fairy tales - i bought a slightly expensive shoes (according to my price range of what constitutes 'expensive') a Clarks.
Just like a love story - i found a shoes that fit me, comfy and friendly to my toes. Price was RM310. No discounts (Clarks never had any sales - only 'bestbuys' to finish their stocks)
Despite the price and against my histories of 'disappointments' with shoes - i bought it.
-------------------------------------RESULT: am still frustrated, am giving up the 'faith' for my Clarks Mary Jane styled shoes because it made my toes beyond ugliness especially both sides of my fifth, smallest toes! The shoes brutally whacked it beyond its normal state. *Sobs*
NOW it looks like as if it has gangrene - slowly 'dying' on me.
Oh, good shoes, the perfect shoes, the most comfy shoes, how do i find thee? NEED intervention or else i am left with no choice but sloppy slippers.
#Terlajak kata 1 aka regrets #1
Besta MD221 electronic dictionary: see post
OK so i wrote and praising the jolly-goodness of how it is to have a besta electronic dictionary. Now a few days later, I'm retracting whatever i may praised about the product. It ain't living up to my expectations and most importantly needs as a postgrad student. It lacks explanations and vocabulary needing to be a postgrad student's standard. But who was i kidding? From the packaging i knew it was meant for school children (note: a picture of a school kid smiling ear to ear with the gadget, don't need to be a rocket scientist to figure that out, no?)
So, i would like to sell it to those in need. Bought at discounted price of RM199 (NP: RM368), and am selling it now at an open price of RM179? (come on, it still practically a brand new stuff with 1 year warranty, no scratch, batt still at its optimum) :) really would recommend for school kids.
#2 Terlajak kata 2 aka regrets #2
Shoes! Ever since i sprained my ankle whilst eagerly strolling for a Jusco's members sale day as a heavily pregnant woman (was 8 months pregnant) ; gone were the days of me strutting with 2.5-5 inches of stilettos, wedges. Also, that injury caused me an 'upgrade' of shoe brands. No more cheap stuffs (yet adorable) brands that goes on sales like everyday. From that day on, I could only find comfort with brands like Hush Puppies ( in fact i was a puppies' loyalist since)
However, most of the shoes that i bought even puppies one, i could only wear 'em for a few months, some just a few weeks. Most of the time, i can't seem to work my way out with the shoes - often it 'kills' my chubby toes that was in fact getting chubbier than it ever been. As such, the shoes some even 1 week old - often given away (with a heavy heart though lol)
So, i would mostly wear a slippers - flat and extremely comfy although it will make me looks sloppy and very informal for office wears etc. And not to mention, exposed my ugly chubby toes for the world to see. (note: me toes's ugliness largely attributed to those wrong shoes i wore since my ankle mishap in 2008)
AND so the search for the 'best shoes' were on and still is.
UNTIL just few months back - i thought well since 2008 my feet has been put 'off-duty' for stilettos and the likes - so, maybe, maybe it is healed. Hence, for Eid, i bought a 3 inch pumps from Charles & Keith ; a brand quite moderately more expensive than say Vincci etc. Everything starts from RM100. So this pumps i had was priced RM159 - OK for me within my price range of my affordable shoes lists.
BUT that too only had me wearing for less than a week and i surrender , left it in the trunk ever since Eid. WHY? that shoes bit me toes to pieces! LOL.
Determination intact - i still search for that one true shoes that would fit me (ala cinderalla fairy tales pula kan? lol)
YES, and just like in fairy tales - i bought a slightly expensive shoes (according to my price range of what constitutes 'expensive') a Clarks.
Just like a love story - i found a shoes that fit me, comfy and friendly to my toes. Price was RM310. No discounts (Clarks never had any sales - only 'bestbuys' to finish their stocks)
Despite the price and against my histories of 'disappointments' with shoes - i bought it.
-------------------------------------RESULT: am still frustrated, am giving up the 'faith' for my Clarks Mary Jane styled shoes because it made my toes beyond ugliness especially both sides of my fifth, smallest toes! The shoes brutally whacked it beyond its normal state. *Sobs*
NOW it looks like as if it has gangrene - slowly 'dying' on me.
Oh, good shoes, the perfect shoes, the most comfy shoes, how do i find thee? NEED intervention or else i am left with no choice but sloppy slippers.
Saturday, November 5, 2011
Of sore throat and motivation 'killed' by lousy net connections
Since quitting job at that forsaken place, i have been very determine to pull the extra hours to have a miracalous catch-up with me writings only to find that all those time i have the drive to write/research at home - spoilt by the extremely lousy internet connection by streamyx.
It has been 2 weeks since me left that job and i have been 'progressing' nothing more than a few more (relevant) articles retrieved, thanks to a certain soul at me now ex-office.
So was very motivated with that (though i know i must finish at least 3 chapters by now if i ever want a chance to extend my scholarship..but you know i don't even hope for the allowances to be extended - at least, hoping to be given the time to finish (grace periods) for a few more months).
BUT, really ..on/off connections, websites can't be found etc whenever i log on the home pc is total turn-offs! Not to mention, makes me raving mad and literally on the verge of vandalising my own pc (that is only less than 2 years old)
I am mad. I hate it. I hate this place. Now eversince i got married and moved in my hubs home; we have tried from digi (it was horrible, had to literally hold that modem with one hand and hoover it arounds for signal while another hand types), then we got Maxis broadband (the most expensive package - still it was equally disappointing), the we tried Celcom (courtesy of my younger sis - same result!) and now streamyx with so-called 1.0MBps speed.......but it equally sucks, and it sucks big time!
i was a loyal streamyx user during my bachelor years at me mom's place in kelana jaya - we used tm almost 10 years - it was the medium package but due to my parents house's location - we enjoyed full speed with medium price.
Not only that, whenever we had problems with the line, the customer service was prompt in helping us out. BUT here, at this neighbourhood, the disconnections are more than the connections and help both via phone and physical customer care - disappointing.
Not that i am paying for the bills but because i rely so much on internet for my writing ( i am writing about blogs for god's sake!) it is imperative i have the web connections up and running especiall at home now that i am not working and have no maid and my child is diagnosed with bronchopneumonia - means no chance for nurseries etc.
with all that, i can only (most of the time) work from home and this lousy services from streamyx is making my life more misreable than it already is.
Not that hubs can't pay for unifi, thing is unifi is still unavailable at my place ..this this 'jin bertendang' place..arrrrrrrrrrrrrgh.
till unifi arrives, only then i'll find salvation and definite civilisation in my neighbourhood (note: the only signs of civilisation so far in this place is KFC!)
OH and today's is AidilAdha. what have i sacrificed? I sacrificed my time and energy in preparing for eid's food for everybody to enjoy (hoepfully they'll enjoy and eat it) as this is my first ever attempt at cooking everything by myself (without my mom's watchful eyes that is) so yeah, am proud. At least i have cooked beef rendang, chicken rendang and peanuts sauce by myself, have you? :)
OH, but not too sure if i can enjoy all of 'em as i am having sore throat, caughs - signs of falling sick but me can't - can't fall sick - lotsa work, i have to be healthy for my kid that is in need of extra care because her immune system is very 'vulnerable' now.
PS: logging in via iphone now there goes my phone bills..must log off now as i will soon be a pauper student cant afford iphone nemore LOL. damn it la.
It has been 2 weeks since me left that job and i have been 'progressing' nothing more than a few more (relevant) articles retrieved, thanks to a certain soul at me now ex-office.
So was very motivated with that (though i know i must finish at least 3 chapters by now if i ever want a chance to extend my scholarship..but you know i don't even hope for the allowances to be extended - at least, hoping to be given the time to finish (grace periods) for a few more months).
BUT, really ..on/off connections, websites can't be found etc whenever i log on the home pc is total turn-offs! Not to mention, makes me raving mad and literally on the verge of vandalising my own pc (that is only less than 2 years old)
I am mad. I hate it. I hate this place. Now eversince i got married and moved in my hubs home; we have tried from digi (it was horrible, had to literally hold that modem with one hand and hoover it arounds for signal while another hand types), then we got Maxis broadband (the most expensive package - still it was equally disappointing), the we tried Celcom (courtesy of my younger sis - same result!) and now streamyx with so-called 1.0MBps speed.......but it equally sucks, and it sucks big time!
i was a loyal streamyx user during my bachelor years at me mom's place in kelana jaya - we used tm almost 10 years - it was the medium package but due to my parents house's location - we enjoyed full speed with medium price.
Not only that, whenever we had problems with the line, the customer service was prompt in helping us out. BUT here, at this neighbourhood, the disconnections are more than the connections and help both via phone and physical customer care - disappointing.
Not that i am paying for the bills but because i rely so much on internet for my writing ( i am writing about blogs for god's sake!) it is imperative i have the web connections up and running especiall at home now that i am not working and have no maid and my child is diagnosed with bronchopneumonia - means no chance for nurseries etc.
with all that, i can only (most of the time) work from home and this lousy services from streamyx is making my life more misreable than it already is.
Not that hubs can't pay for unifi, thing is unifi is still unavailable at my place ..this this 'jin bertendang' place..arrrrrrrrrrrrrgh.
till unifi arrives, only then i'll find salvation and definite civilisation in my neighbourhood (note: the only signs of civilisation so far in this place is KFC!)
OH and today's is AidilAdha. what have i sacrificed? I sacrificed my time and energy in preparing for eid's food for everybody to enjoy (hoepfully they'll enjoy and eat it) as this is my first ever attempt at cooking everything by myself (without my mom's watchful eyes that is) so yeah, am proud. At least i have cooked beef rendang, chicken rendang and peanuts sauce by myself, have you? :)
OH, but not too sure if i can enjoy all of 'em as i am having sore throat, caughs - signs of falling sick but me can't - can't fall sick - lotsa work, i have to be healthy for my kid that is in need of extra care because her immune system is very 'vulnerable' now.
PS: logging in via iphone now there goes my phone bills..must log off now as i will soon be a pauper student cant afford iphone nemore LOL. damn it la.
Friday, November 4, 2011
Between a comedy show and a screwed up glam-all-went-wrong show
By now i am sure all malaysians that watched last night's dull ASK 2011 performances would be talking about its...dullness. LOL.
and tomorrow's headlines (at least for the said corporation's papers) will gloat on its magical prestigious award show and all the winners..OK nonetheless, i'd still want to congratulate all the winners - like ms yuyu aziz for winning best tv news reporting and of course to the rest of the winners.
Yes, this is a show about appreciating (so-called) those working on/off that glass screen.
However, being so-called a prestigious award show, handled by the so-called prestigious renowned station - last night's ASK 2011 was nothing but a flop.
I think this is where the phrase "action speaks louder than words' comes in handy.
Just look at audiences' faces - all of them was trying their best not to fall asleep or make a poker face - some tried appearing more 'diplomatic' by letting out their 'apologetic small laughs" once in awhile at the equally banal jokes-went-wrong by the hosts.
Ah, the hosts. I don't know. Guess that mr A will get a real hard bashing from now on because from what was written in the paper - it was him that pushed the production team to make his duo - a duo that night.
No doubt mr. A is an excellent compere, renowned, very experienced handling live shows , seasoned staff and if it's not too much, i'm guessing that he's too good of compere that this said station only have him as compere.
Yes in other words they have no options but to feature him on the stage. Crude? Maybe. But here's another of my 2cents - despite all his talents, his nothing but a 're-useable' green bag - convenient, practical you know all that great for savings but lacks in variety. He is so been 'used' too many times, doing too many shows - that people can expect what his 'scripts' would be - all his innuendos, his quirky smiles before a joke - i mean it is so predictable, as if the audiences have grow accustomed to him.
BUT in the end of the day, he is only one man. And although try as he might, he could not salvage all the 'wrongdoings' of that show. He was not the savior. He lost.
Now the other thing that's gonna be talk of the town of how sloppy this show went last night, was the fact of the other host.
YES. so-called malaysian's barbie-doll. OK, yes she is pretty for a 40+ woman. BUT she is wrong from the get-go...where do i even begin...
1) i won't comment about chemistry between the duo - but in terms of visual, the barbie doll already ruined the picture when teaming up with mr. A - for barbie's Mr A is not Ken- short for her.
2) she's not a fluid conversationalist. She was so scripted and it showed.
3) from the make -up, her fake eyelashes, overdone hairdo styled, menopause barbie outfit, overly stiff botox face.....it was just a wrong wrong wrong wrong picture her to be there.
I don't know, i could be going on bashing without end about this said show - luckily i used my liberty as a home viewer - i switched the channel to channel 132.
For the first time since the premier week of Maharaja Lawak Mega (MLM) aired on channel 132 - i actually glad to have that option of spending tv time and have actually enjoyed the performances of MLM contestants.
Now, MLM jokes were really jokes at least even it didn't tickle the audiences, there was a clear effort to entertain the audiences - but ASK? the only thing that definitely made the people laughing is how floppy that show is. the joke is on them for once.
PS: and what is up with all the wannabe Oscars dress-up with all the celebs? THIS IS MALAYSIA, YOU (MOST OF THEM) ARE MUSLIM, this ain't Hollywood nor it is an international award. You guys competing with domestically (and most even just between the in-house productions). Pity all the ladies that have to doll-up for the world to see, and pity for all who enjoyed seeing what they see.
and tomorrow's headlines (at least for the said corporation's papers) will gloat on its magical prestigious award show and all the winners..OK nonetheless, i'd still want to congratulate all the winners - like ms yuyu aziz for winning best tv news reporting and of course to the rest of the winners.
Yes, this is a show about appreciating (so-called) those working on/off that glass screen.
However, being so-called a prestigious award show, handled by the so-called prestigious renowned station - last night's ASK 2011 was nothing but a flop.
I think this is where the phrase "action speaks louder than words' comes in handy.
Just look at audiences' faces - all of them was trying their best not to fall asleep or make a poker face - some tried appearing more 'diplomatic' by letting out their 'apologetic small laughs" once in awhile at the equally banal jokes-went-wrong by the hosts.
Ah, the hosts. I don't know. Guess that mr A will get a real hard bashing from now on because from what was written in the paper - it was him that pushed the production team to make his duo - a duo that night.
No doubt mr. A is an excellent compere, renowned, very experienced handling live shows , seasoned staff and if it's not too much, i'm guessing that he's too good of compere that this said station only have him as compere.
Yes in other words they have no options but to feature him on the stage. Crude? Maybe. But here's another of my 2cents - despite all his talents, his nothing but a 're-useable' green bag - convenient, practical you know all that great for savings but lacks in variety. He is so been 'used' too many times, doing too many shows - that people can expect what his 'scripts' would be - all his innuendos, his quirky smiles before a joke - i mean it is so predictable, as if the audiences have grow accustomed to him.
BUT in the end of the day, he is only one man. And although try as he might, he could not salvage all the 'wrongdoings' of that show. He was not the savior. He lost.
Now the other thing that's gonna be talk of the town of how sloppy this show went last night, was the fact of the other host.
YES. so-called malaysian's barbie-doll. OK, yes she is pretty for a 40+ woman. BUT she is wrong from the get-go...where do i even begin...
1) i won't comment about chemistry between the duo - but in terms of visual, the barbie doll already ruined the picture when teaming up with mr. A - for barbie's Mr A is not Ken- short for her.
2) she's not a fluid conversationalist. She was so scripted and it showed.
3) from the make -up, her fake eyelashes, overdone hairdo styled, menopause barbie outfit, overly stiff botox face.....it was just a wrong wrong wrong wrong picture her to be there.
I don't know, i could be going on bashing without end about this said show - luckily i used my liberty as a home viewer - i switched the channel to channel 132.
For the first time since the premier week of Maharaja Lawak Mega (MLM) aired on channel 132 - i actually glad to have that option of spending tv time and have actually enjoyed the performances of MLM contestants.
Now, MLM jokes were really jokes at least even it didn't tickle the audiences, there was a clear effort to entertain the audiences - but ASK? the only thing that definitely made the people laughing is how floppy that show is. the joke is on them for once.
PS: and what is up with all the wannabe Oscars dress-up with all the celebs? THIS IS MALAYSIA, YOU (MOST OF THEM) ARE MUSLIM, this ain't Hollywood nor it is an international award. You guys competing with domestically (and most even just between the in-house productions). Pity all the ladies that have to doll-up for the world to see, and pity for all who enjoyed seeing what they see.
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