The day ive been waiting for ever since taking up that offer, has finally came and done with. From today onwards, im officially a grad student.
I must admit, after 4 years leaving uni life, getting myself back in the game of reading scholarly materials, writing analysis about an issue, attending classes all a bit nervewrecking and intimidating.
But it is only my first day at school. If things go well and according to plan, i'll graduate in a year time. And hopefully with good grades if not flying off the walls grades.
Apart from getting myself back in the routine of that a student- the revising notes, the group discussions, presentations and what not- another crucial aspect that i hope to benefit from this whole ordeal is brushing up the communicationn skills- especially the english lingo. As this would significantly be useful for me in the future as an aspiring lecturer- i really need to be in academia elements if theres such a thing.
On a different note, being a student again - although am doing it on full-time basis, i dont see myself as one. What i am unfortunately doing 'full-time' is play mommy role. Yes, im talking about my baby girl as the bos of me and im her nanny. Evenmore crucial now that my maid took off yesterday. In that sense, im as part-time as most of my new classmates are and that would require me being more hardworking. Hope i can cope.
In the meantime, me got new site to my name in this blog sphere.
Http://greenerpasturechacha.blogspot.com
Monday, July 12, 2010
Saturday, June 5, 2010
Ops israelis doing it again! And again..and again again again...
By today- it's not just Islamic countries ir communities but the whole world whose concern with Israelis attrocities on the interceptions of world's flotilla convoy-standing united in condemnation towards tel aviv and netanyahu!
Though more than 20 lives of innocent activist were killed- most shot in close range by Israelis commandos who raided the Mavi marmara ship - the zionists wont stop their cause.
No more is the issues of religion - there are islam, christians, jews and even atheist but they come together in the name of humantarian efforts to relinquish the blockade on helpless Gazans - something that should have been stopped a long time ago.
Palestinians should be freed! Palestine should be allowed to fuction as a country, a sovereign state, exercising their rights just as any other countries.
It is no longer an issue of islamic jihad (fight in the name Allah) it is not a terrorist actions if a Gazan or Palestinian blew themselves up in order to protect what is left of their country. But this, this blockade, this attrocities, this interceptions on world convoy all in the name of solving bigest humantarian crisis- this is terrorism at its worse play! Tonnes of aid channel in hope of building gazans is not fuelling terrorism. But imposing blockade, uneccessary sanctions for basic food, medications IS TERRORISM!
More pitiful the western leaders act like a dummy on a string. Powerless over Israel - a state thats way smaller than those countries combine. Mouths sealed; hands tighten; eyes shut; ears deaf up.
What can we do than stood in congregation over and over again and condemn our loudest to them? Its about time all muslims in the world, arabs too, acivists who believe in the cause- come together and 'strike' the Israelis hard! Strike them now when they're most vulnerable! Strike them now when they're most afraid of their own shadows! Strike them and may Allah be with us throughout this ordeal!
Though more than 20 lives of innocent activist were killed- most shot in close range by Israelis commandos who raided the Mavi marmara ship - the zionists wont stop their cause.
No more is the issues of religion - there are islam, christians, jews and even atheist but they come together in the name of humantarian efforts to relinquish the blockade on helpless Gazans - something that should have been stopped a long time ago.
Palestinians should be freed! Palestine should be allowed to fuction as a country, a sovereign state, exercising their rights just as any other countries.
It is no longer an issue of islamic jihad (fight in the name Allah) it is not a terrorist actions if a Gazan or Palestinian blew themselves up in order to protect what is left of their country. But this, this blockade, this attrocities, this interceptions on world convoy all in the name of solving bigest humantarian crisis- this is terrorism at its worse play! Tonnes of aid channel in hope of building gazans is not fuelling terrorism. But imposing blockade, uneccessary sanctions for basic food, medications IS TERRORISM!
More pitiful the western leaders act like a dummy on a string. Powerless over Israel - a state thats way smaller than those countries combine. Mouths sealed; hands tighten; eyes shut; ears deaf up.
What can we do than stood in congregation over and over again and condemn our loudest to them? Its about time all muslims in the world, arabs too, acivists who believe in the cause- come together and 'strike' the Israelis hard! Strike them now when they're most vulnerable! Strike them now when they're most afraid of their own shadows! Strike them and may Allah be with us throughout this ordeal!
Friday, March 12, 2010
Al-Fatihah Eddy Adika
Salam..
Kullun Nafsin Za Ikatul Maut.
My condolences to the family of Allahyarham Eddy Adika. He passed away at home in Johor Bahru, Johor at 10 pm, 12th of March 2010. I think he's 22 years old.
He was ex-trainee at NCA TV9 once. back in 2008.
For the brief 4 months i had spent with him, i knew him as this bubbly, super charming friend. Whoever knew, behind those smile and brave face he kept a secret - he was diagnosed with a brain tumor and was struggling for dear life.
When he finished the internship, i never got to meet him and the last time was at Berjaya Media Nite courtesy of my old UIA friend -Liza. She invited me and said i could bring a few friends - one of them was Eddy.
I remembered that night we gigled, ate and just had fun. Posing for pictures making silly faces.
I was never close to him at work, but we did share a few secrets here and there, swapping stories once in awhile but basically he'd be one of my lunch-mates.
However, I would still regard him a friend. And as a friend, this is a second time i lost one. The first time was in primary school -a chinese friend and we all went to the crematorium to pay our last respect.
And this time Eddy. IF there's anything that i regret - is that i didn't take the time to check in with him especially during the last few months when i knew his health was failing, when he needed a shoulder to cry on or just plain company even if it means via sms-es.
I regretted the last sms was only a brief TQ and 'How are you hope you're well' when he congratulated me on my newborn baby.
And now he's gone I regret not able to pay my last respect to him. Eventhough every muscle in my body aches to do so, i can't.
reason #1 : have to leave my 9 months old baby who by the way fell off our bed last night.
reason #2 : the place is quite far. if i were to go, be best not to travel alone. and since other colleague seem to be working or occupied with something else......
EDDY ADIKA i am sorry. i know this note is too late. BUT i am so sorry. I still love you and will remember you as that cheerful EDDY ADIKA that was a friend to me. Though I could have been a better friend but i failed in doing so.
Kullun Nafsin Za Ikatul Maut.
My condolences to the family of Allahyarham Eddy Adika. He passed away at home in Johor Bahru, Johor at 10 pm, 12th of March 2010. I think he's 22 years old.
He was ex-trainee at NCA TV9 once. back in 2008.
For the brief 4 months i had spent with him, i knew him as this bubbly, super charming friend. Whoever knew, behind those smile and brave face he kept a secret - he was diagnosed with a brain tumor and was struggling for dear life.
When he finished the internship, i never got to meet him and the last time was at Berjaya Media Nite courtesy of my old UIA friend -Liza. She invited me and said i could bring a few friends - one of them was Eddy.
I remembered that night we gigled, ate and just had fun. Posing for pictures making silly faces.
I was never close to him at work, but we did share a few secrets here and there, swapping stories once in awhile but basically he'd be one of my lunch-mates.
However, I would still regard him a friend. And as a friend, this is a second time i lost one. The first time was in primary school -a chinese friend and we all went to the crematorium to pay our last respect.
And this time Eddy. IF there's anything that i regret - is that i didn't take the time to check in with him especially during the last few months when i knew his health was failing, when he needed a shoulder to cry on or just plain company even if it means via sms-es.
I regretted the last sms was only a brief TQ and 'How are you hope you're well' when he congratulated me on my newborn baby.
And now he's gone I regret not able to pay my last respect to him. Eventhough every muscle in my body aches to do so, i can't.
reason #1 : have to leave my 9 months old baby who by the way fell off our bed last night.
reason #2 : the place is quite far. if i were to go, be best not to travel alone. and since other colleague seem to be working or occupied with something else......
EDDY ADIKA i am sorry. i know this note is too late. BUT i am so sorry. I still love you and will remember you as that cheerful EDDY ADIKA that was a friend to me. Though I could have been a better friend but i failed in doing so.
Above: One of my last moment with Eddy. Do disregard the fact of my silly face. Seen here after our night out at Berjaya Media's Night. There are more pictures of him and I, but it's all kept in my HDD of which at the moment seems to malfunction.
Friday, February 26, 2010
Pog mo thoin
1. I know i say this often, and it sounds so cliche, but that is just the truth and nothing more. i've been slacking to write solely because i been busy. ok not really. quite occupied with life basically.
2. Seriously I don't know where to start. So many things i wanted to write about. the many happenings, the pouring out, baby's progress...you know everything.
3. Just can't understand, why is it when we complain a little, or perhaps been vocal about any disgruntled feelings we are often perceived and labeled as sorry arse whiners? complainer? Can it just be that we are merely being brave enough to say what we feel out in the open so far there are solid reasons behind them? blowing trumphets and founded expressions of dissatisfaction - there are difference between the two. Though it can be a blurry defining line.
4. Are we supposed to be blinded followers? Nay-sayyers? to everything and anything to the establishment or superior that we work with or anything that matter? can't we have a differentiated views or suggestions or mere bashing once in awhile? you know, therepeutic purposes.( note bashing)
5. And everytime there are non-believers, critics or haters (maybe) - i just wanted to shout at their face and say " back-off" . If it doesn't concern or involve you, don't give your opinion to me. don't criticize me. Don't judge me. Your not entitled.
6. I'm no whiner! no, not at all. And it irks me most if anything people would call or associate me as such everytime i may have conflicting views. You have no idea have grateful I am. Your not the God of me. YOU don't know me.
7. Are you grateful enough? TO compare with others is so easy. Finding mistakes in others is even more easy. Doesn't have to be an Einstein for that. BUT many of us forgets that we are mere mortals, we make mistakes, you, her, him, that lad, this gal and I. WE. so don't discriminate. don't be judgemental.
8. I have my own reason not to like somebody. If i chose not to like a person, am i a sinner? and you ( the judgemental pea brain) hollier than thou? most absolutely not! get serious, all of us, ALL (can't be stressing more) have favorites. Even Allah almightly have favourite and that is His Beloved and Ours too Prophet Muhammad PBUH. So don't get me started.
9. Sooooo high-school sometimes when some adult would have the heart to make click or gang up for the mission to destroy others. (by reputation i reckon most, too kill literally they're faint hearted) It's so mindboggling to me on why these people can do that. TO actually 'steal' a friend of their 'enemy(s)' and poisoined them thoroughly until they become one of them- an enemy. Evenmore sickening at those poisoined 'victim' to be easily coaxed to defect.
10. I have no more love for this particular kashain. I've drained out on that. Every minute passes me by so slowly and kills me softly. Like carcinoma cells engulfing and suffocating me.
11. Now i learned the blunt way. That 'black' record is a phantom. I thought it already died out and a closed case. But apparently, or shall i quote "i have to be blunt to you.." unquote. it has not. Which totally explains why i can't be made anything more than what i am today. Any advancement halted until further notice. Funny though. Debatable really. To a point of absurdity. If the past is what hindering me from any pot of gold, i can take that anytime. (on second thought make that copper la gold is too pushing it LOLS) BUT, BUT....as a punishment or reason so i can't take leave even if it's medically deemed fit, that's preposterous!
12. I was misleaded with that once. I was assured by somebody i trusted (then) that that somebody will help me sustained what i had and it was a non-problem. FYI: i had not 1 but 2 shigoto awaiting for confirmation as a resort and exodus from hell on earth. BUT i was assured not to go ahead with that. ASSURED until a week before it befalls on me. a week before and after i had let everything else go in the light of that assurance i had. they betrayed me. that somebody included. and it become the black phantom eversince.
13. not trying to revisit the phantom. the mere scribbling due to current surfacing of the issue and i feel i need to make it known to those who didn't know what really went down, of the hows and whys to just 'back-off'! you weren't there, you don't know, it certainly doesn't concern you so why bother? sebab best jadik nossy body la itu sebabnya kan? it's really fun to see other people got beaten up kan? wait for your turn then. we'll see who have the biggest laughs.
14. and because of that (if any) makes me a nervewreck. i want to prove them, oh how i want to prove them. and i already have the prove. and i want to have that biggest laugh at the end.
15. it's so bad to a point some labeling kyunoterebiwa losers dump-site. those who can't succed, rejects, leftist, side-liners (just merely playing with names) you get the idea kan.
16. If there's anything i learn; back-stabbing is a virtue, top-notch arse kisser a trait, villain always win, sugar-coated is reality, extra-hours is so charity in a mandatorily way of being grateful without asking back any monatery form of payment and if you make noise you reprimanded
17. Conclusion. what goes around comes around. being a sorry arse whining losers won't help (mine included) and to err is human to forgive is divine (yeah tell me about it) but to not repeat same mistake is magnifique, to not stay at same place for a long time is a smart-arse, to being pushed and swallowing it altogether is bullying anyway you want to put it!
18. stop fidgeting tomorrow's a new day, and if you hate hearing me whine a little, talks crap in between, curse once in awhile, praise the other time you can POG MO THOIN! that people is IRISH-GAELIC means 'KISS MY ARSE' (knew you couldn't guess that, i took the liberty of salvaging you from killing your self)
2. Seriously I don't know where to start. So many things i wanted to write about. the many happenings, the pouring out, baby's progress...you know everything.
3. Just can't understand, why is it when we complain a little, or perhaps been vocal about any disgruntled feelings we are often perceived and labeled as sorry arse whiners? complainer? Can it just be that we are merely being brave enough to say what we feel out in the open so far there are solid reasons behind them? blowing trumphets and founded expressions of dissatisfaction - there are difference between the two. Though it can be a blurry defining line.
4. Are we supposed to be blinded followers? Nay-sayyers? to everything and anything to the establishment or superior that we work with or anything that matter? can't we have a differentiated views or suggestions or mere bashing once in awhile? you know, therepeutic purposes.( note bashing)
5. And everytime there are non-believers, critics or haters (maybe) - i just wanted to shout at their face and say " back-off" . If it doesn't concern or involve you, don't give your opinion to me. don't criticize me. Don't judge me. Your not entitled.
6. I'm no whiner! no, not at all. And it irks me most if anything people would call or associate me as such everytime i may have conflicting views. You have no idea have grateful I am. Your not the God of me. YOU don't know me.
7. Are you grateful enough? TO compare with others is so easy. Finding mistakes in others is even more easy. Doesn't have to be an Einstein for that. BUT many of us forgets that we are mere mortals, we make mistakes, you, her, him, that lad, this gal and I. WE. so don't discriminate. don't be judgemental.
8. I have my own reason not to like somebody. If i chose not to like a person, am i a sinner? and you ( the judgemental pea brain) hollier than thou? most absolutely not! get serious, all of us, ALL (can't be stressing more) have favorites. Even Allah almightly have favourite and that is His Beloved and Ours too Prophet Muhammad PBUH. So don't get me started.
9. Sooooo high-school sometimes when some adult would have the heart to make click or gang up for the mission to destroy others. (by reputation i reckon most, too kill literally they're faint hearted) It's so mindboggling to me on why these people can do that. TO actually 'steal' a friend of their 'enemy(s)' and poisoined them thoroughly until they become one of them- an enemy. Evenmore sickening at those poisoined 'victim' to be easily coaxed to defect.
10. I have no more love for this particular kashain. I've drained out on that. Every minute passes me by so slowly and kills me softly. Like carcinoma cells engulfing and suffocating me.
11. Now i learned the blunt way. That 'black' record is a phantom. I thought it already died out and a closed case. But apparently, or shall i quote "i have to be blunt to you.." unquote. it has not. Which totally explains why i can't be made anything more than what i am today. Any advancement halted until further notice. Funny though. Debatable really. To a point of absurdity. If the past is what hindering me from any pot of gold, i can take that anytime. (on second thought make that copper la gold is too pushing it LOLS) BUT, BUT....as a punishment or reason so i can't take leave even if it's medically deemed fit, that's preposterous!
12. I was misleaded with that once. I was assured by somebody i trusted (then) that that somebody will help me sustained what i had and it was a non-problem. FYI: i had not 1 but 2 shigoto awaiting for confirmation as a resort and exodus from hell on earth. BUT i was assured not to go ahead with that. ASSURED until a week before it befalls on me. a week before and after i had let everything else go in the light of that assurance i had. they betrayed me. that somebody included. and it become the black phantom eversince.
13. not trying to revisit the phantom. the mere scribbling due to current surfacing of the issue and i feel i need to make it known to those who didn't know what really went down, of the hows and whys to just 'back-off'! you weren't there, you don't know, it certainly doesn't concern you so why bother? sebab best jadik nossy body la itu sebabnya kan? it's really fun to see other people got beaten up kan? wait for your turn then. we'll see who have the biggest laughs.
14. and because of that (if any) makes me a nervewreck. i want to prove them, oh how i want to prove them. and i already have the prove. and i want to have that biggest laugh at the end.
15. it's so bad to a point some labeling kyunoterebiwa losers dump-site. those who can't succed, rejects, leftist, side-liners (just merely playing with names) you get the idea kan.
16. If there's anything i learn; back-stabbing is a virtue, top-notch arse kisser a trait, villain always win, sugar-coated is reality, extra-hours is so charity in a mandatorily way of being grateful without asking back any monatery form of payment and if you make noise you reprimanded
17. Conclusion. what goes around comes around. being a sorry arse whining losers won't help (mine included) and to err is human to forgive is divine (yeah tell me about it) but to not repeat same mistake is magnifique, to not stay at same place for a long time is a smart-arse, to being pushed and swallowing it altogether is bullying anyway you want to put it!
18. stop fidgeting tomorrow's a new day, and if you hate hearing me whine a little, talks crap in between, curse once in awhile, praise the other time you can POG MO THOIN! that people is IRISH-GAELIC means 'KISS MY ARSE' (knew you couldn't guess that, i took the liberty of salvaging you from killing your self)
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